Sunday, May 07, 2006

Why I Need New Friends

Now, please don't think that I'm saying I need to replace my old friends, that's not true. I love them all. That being said, I need new friends in addition to the old ones. I feel like I'm growing further and further away from my friends, and it's not entirely their fault. Before I had the baby, I could go out whenever. I could go to fancy restaurants, out to the bar, to a movie and dinner. Now, not so much. I don't expect my friends lives to change because mine had, but I had kind of hoped that there would still be a place for me in that world, but I'm learning that the older and more dificult that Mary gets, the smaller my place in that world is. It is getting rarer and rarer the times that I can bring her out, the times that there is a baby friendly thing going on, the times where I actually feel comfortable bringing her out. I'm kind of being forced to come to terms with this a little more often these days, without Ian around, it's harder and harder (read: next to impossible) for me to go places without the baby. I was feeling sorry for myself this afternoon and I realized that it's kind of my fault. I mean, I know people with kids, but I've not really strengthened those relationships, you know? I've never really been good at forging close relationships with people. To be honest, even among my group of friends now, I can count the number of people who I would be comfortable calling up for help or company on half a hand, and even then, it would take a good deal of bad stuff to make me actually pick up the phone and call.

Anyways, on to other stuff....Did you watch Grey's Anatomy tonight? I bawled like a baby. Seriously, between the angst of my Fallen Angels game last night, and the weeping from that show tonight, I'm feeling a wee bit emotionally drained.

Hey! It looks like Moustapha will be home soon, probably within the next two weeks or so! Yay! I can't wait to have him home so we can...ah...well...reacquaint ourselves with eachother.

4 comments:

Cori Quite Contrary said...

I wept like a child during Grey's Anatomy. It didn't help that my mom was watching it with me.

Goody said...

When I wanted to make new friends in school, I'd bribe the other kids to be my friend my giving them the desert from our cafeteria lunch.

I'm not saying you won't get weird looks approaching strangers and asking if they'll be your friend for some apple crisp-but hey, you never know.

Jenn said...

You know, Goody, that's a fantastic idea! I might get some strange looks, but surely apple crisp (or those cream puffs that you posted the recipe for on your cooking blog) will get me at least one or two friends.

Goody said...

If that fails there is always;
"I'll show you mine if you show me yours"

Seriously though, it IS hard when your friends don't have kids. I don't know anyone with children Danny's age (well duh, I waited until I was an old lady to have him)and I think I'm starting to bore people with "Danny this", "Danny that."